Divorce- My Story

I have wanted to leave my husband more times than I can remember. They say the first seven years are the hardest, and it is no joke it sucks.

Again I am not here to tell you divorce is a sin or divorce is ok. I am just here to share my story and my wisdom.

My marriage has been a rollercoaster of loving my husband to wanting to burry him in the backyard.

I have spent weeks crying myself to sleep.
My heart has been so broken it made me physically sick.
I have yelled and screamed and ignored and fought.

Now some time men can just be idiots, that hurts us with their acts and words. But I want to tell you today that most of the time it is the enemy stirring the pot.
He is using your husband against you and he knows just what strings to pull.

Marriage, love and unity is from our Father and the enemies sole mission is to steal, destroy and kill it.

How many times do we read that our fight is not in flesh but in spirit.
Your beef is not with the handsome piece of flesh standing there with a confused look on his face. Your fight is with the enemy in spirit.

And now Martha from across the street tells you how she has been praying for years on end for a better husband and better marriage and now you are convinced all hope is lost ... I'm going to be bold and say she is probably doing it wrong.
We misinterpret the word of God. We only take half of it to heart and then we can't understand why there is no breakthrough.
We need to take our husbands and our marriages to the courts of heaven and settlle the matter.
With God as our most high judge. Jesus are your advocate. The Holy Spirit as your adviser. And off course the enemy as the prosecuter. (These are biblical advice on prayer and petitions)

Separation in any form is a curse from the enemy. And you need to see it for what it is. This curse will effect you and your children and your grandchildren.

You might walk out and find happiness else where (which I doubt you will if you do not deal with your core spiritual issues) but what about your children? You will pass that curse unto them and they might not be so lucky. It might cost them everything.

So often we hear couples stay together for the kids .... What more reason do you need?

My marriage is still far from perfect and most days I still want to throw him with a pan or brick.
But I have made the mindset shift of seeing mistakes in my husband as curses in the spirit. And bad traits in my husband as the enemy poking the bear.

It's not the dudes fault. Well not all the time. And most probably he is just as unhappy about being used by the enemy as you. And thats why you need to fight together to take back what the enemy has stolen.

Don't try finding and understanding each other. Try finding God, His grace and His wisdom.

Start seeing your husband like God sees him. Just a person trying to fight his demons. Acting on what the enemy is manifesting in his spirit.

Don't stop praying for your marriage. Never stop praying because God's word says there is power in prayer. Google prayers for my spouse and marriage declarations and save them all.
But pray for revelation and wisdom from the Father.
Ask Father to send His Son and His Spirit to all the deep dark places in your heart mind soul and spirit and seek out the core issues. Do the same for your husband.

Choose to see God's goodness in your husband. Choose to see His hand of grace in your life. Father loves you both endlessly.